Another Summer Day...Has Come and Gone Away

School starts on Wednesday.

I'm not sure how I feel about it.

On one hand, I can't wait to get back into a routine, and start diving back into textbooks and writing papers, doing math homework, anything to keep myself busy. But I will miss the summer.

This summer has been...unique. I have had some of the most wonderful moments of my life this summer, along with some of the most heartbreaking. I'm not sure why those two always have to go together, but there you have it.

I think that I have started to learn what it's like to be a free spirit. Setting up for school has made me realized I'll be tied down again...to desks and deadlines. I didn't have a problem with any of those before, but now, it doesn't seem as glamorous as it once did. Perhaps because I had imagined that I would have..well, let's just say that I imagined this semester would be much different than it is turning out to be. Such is life! I guess I have a choice to fly away and be free. And I'll admit it's pretty tempting right now. But I've also discovered that I'm stronger than I think I am, and right now I need to be finishing school and preparing for the rest of my life.

So that leaves me where I am I guess.

A free spirit with deadlines and a desk...on which I will be planning all of my free spirit trips.

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Life....

*SIGH*

Hope

Never Lose Hope


“My message to you today, my brothers and sisters, is simply this: the Lord is in control. He knows the end from the beginning. He has given us adequate instruction that, if followed, will see us safely through any crisis. His purposes will be fulfilled, and someday we will understand the eternal reasons for all of these events. Therefore, today we must be careful to not overreact, nor should we be caught up in extreme preparations; but what we must do is keep the commandments of God and never lose hope!”

M. Russell Ballard, “The Joy of Hope Fulfilled,” Ensign, Nov. 1992, 31

Just tonight.

I'm sitting by the window.
The breeze is slowly cooling off the hot room.
Buble is singing his jazzy "Tenderness" and
The stars are glittering in the dark night sky

and I am extremely happy right now.

I love when I can feel the world spinning around the sun. There are days when everything seems chaotic, like this rock we're on has been thrown out of orbit. In reality, it's me that is in orbit. Finally in orbit again. Everything begins to come together, when you least expect it, when you have been working on it so hard it hurts, and when you need it the most.

It's a beautiful feeling.

I was sitting at the table watching a movie after helping my roomie, Madison, make zucchini bread. And I realized something.

I am so happy here.

I wish it could last forever...

But I only have 11 days of this. I will make it the best 11 days EVER. It has already become a home away from home. I hope that the next place I am in will be the same.

PS! I found an place to live for fall! It's been a struggle to find something just for fall...but I did it. I'm the only one who has signed up for it yet, so I am praying very very very hard that some very very very good girls will sign up to live there. But it's only for the semester, and I won't be there most of the time. Between dating, school, work (provided I find a job soon!), and homework I shouldn't notice if they aren't nice. At least....I hope so!

But, for tonight, it's enough not to worry about all of that and just type my story right here as it unfolds.

The clicking of the keys and the sound of Enya are soothing.

Life is so good!

New Mormon.org

For those of you that don't know, the LDS church has revamped their website (mormon.org) to allow for members of the church to have profiles there. I created my profile a while back and would like to encourage everyone I know to do so as well! There are many questions that you can answer on the site, from "Are Mormons Christian?" to "What are some things that tell to you there is a God?". It is a great way to share your faith and beliefs with the world. Also, when you sign up you can get a "I'm Mormon" button to put on your blog :D See mine ---------->

Today I came across a great question and wanted to post it here, along with my answer:

What are some things that tell to you there is a God?

Perfectly symmetrical flowers. Sunsets. Breathtaking views off the side of a cliff. Faces of people I have never met or seen before. Breathing. Laying on my back porch and staring at the stars at night. Seeing the sunlight sift through the leaves in a forest. Miracles. A heartbeat. Children. Family. Friends. Love. The feelings I have when I pray to Him. I feel at home when I pray. I feel that someone really is listening, and that someone really does care about me and my life. I can never deny that I know God is there and that He never leaves us alone.

" Yea, and all things denote there is a God yea, even the earth, and all things that are upon the face of it, yea, and its motion, yea, and also all the planets which move in their regular form do witness that there is a Supreme Creator." -Alma 30:44

Patience.

Today, this week, this month, and probably this year, I have been thinking A LOT about patience.

I really wish I could say that I am a patient person.

I wish I could say that waiting for something is easy.

I wish that it was easy to be patient.

But it isn't.

I've had a lot of wonderful things happen to me in the past year. But all of these wonderful things are requiring patience. I was able to serve a mission. I had my knees break. I came home and have been trying to learn patience from recovery. But I guess that I haven't learned to be patient enough just yet.